Hi Kids! Grandma has been amiss of late in writing to you here on Across the Years, and I have been observing all of you in the ways you carry yourselves and the things you say and do. I know that having your parents in 2 different places is difficult, and you may have conflicting opinions and feelings about what's happening. Your parents may talk to you and yet not confide in you as to what exactly is happening. People grow apart sometimes and it's no one's fault really. Your Mom and Dad just approach life in different ways and they don't seem to be able to reconcile the differences and continue on this particular pathway. You always have a place here in my home and we can talk about things anytime you want. I don't know your Mom's and Dad's hearts and I can't give you information if I don't have any myself. Just know that your Mom and Dad both love you, Nana and Nano love you, Diego loves you, and last but certainly not least, Nine and Grandpa and Grandma love you more than you can imagine. I don't like to see you have to carry on your daily lives when inside you may be churning and unhappy. I want to see you laugh and smile like you did before all this happened.
This happened at a very difficult time for all of you. Your become teenagers and going through puberty and that's hard enough when everything is going fine at home. I can just imagine how difficult concentrating on your schoolwork must be when you may be angry and frustrated at your parent's situation. Just know that your Mom and Dad are 2 very different people and no matter how often they talk, nothing seems to get resolved. It's a difficult time for all of us.
BUT! There is a God who loves you, all of you, even Mom and Dad and He wants to see things work out for all of you. Even if you don't think so right now, if you ask God to help you and your parents, things will get better. I pray for them, and you need to pray too. Let them know how you feel. If they knew how you feel inside and the struggles you are facing every day, and the anger you must feel, maybe they would explain things to you in a way that will help you understand both of them. If you want to talk about your feelings and you can't confront your parents, you can talk with your grandparents and Nine and we will try to help you with it. I don't want to go on and on over the same thing, I just want you to know that you can confide in us and we will try to help you. I don't know what goes on in your mind. You can express whatever you feel and we will listen and try to be of help to you.
We love you so much and that's the bottom line!
Love You All,
Grandma
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Thursday, March 1, 2012
A New Design
Today my daughter Sidra and I began a new design for our lives. She made up a calendar listing of things we are going to attempt to do on a daily basis, and yet have some time for ourselves to do some creative play and get things accomplished at the same time. It's hard for me to chill and just do something fun, but this year is going to be a turning point for both of us. I have a scrap book that was a Christmas gift and all the things I will need in order to decorate it and make it mine. There will be draawings from Brian Junior, pictures of Jack when he was little, pictures of all the kids, grandkids, and grandma and grandpa dating back to early days all the way through to the present. It will be so great to decorate and make things clean too. I am thankful for the help because I am getting older. I hurt in many places I've never hurt before and yet when I put on music that Jack and I use to listen to when we first got together, it makes me feel young and I can get a lot done. You don't have time to mope either when you're listening to Led Zepplin or Aerosmith, or any of a dozen groups. I can't bring myself to listen to slow music when I have things that need to get done. I'll sample the slow relaxing strains of Jazz after the work is done and I want to rest and get into something fun.
Today a crew of tree people came and started cutting down the big eucalyptus trees up on the hill across from our house. They cut the tops off first because these trees have been there forever. I am glad because the hill is washing away and pretty soon the roots will be exposed and a good strong wind could produce a dangerous incident to take place, like trees falling on our house or our awning. There is a ficus tree that needs to come down in our yard, but I don't know if they will do that or even if it's scheduled to be taken down. We want to put avocado trees in the yard and I'd love to put in a magnolia tree. I want our yard to be really well done and I still want to put roses out front and just let the manager complain about things. That's what managers do I guess. It's our yard...I think we should have some say so in what the yard looks like.
I couldn't fall asleep last night until almost 1:00, and I woke up at 5:30 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep, I feel great though, but I did take a 2 hour nap that rather rounded things out. I didn't have to take my meds right away because I got up around 2:00 last night and took 16 mg of Trilafon and that carried me quiet a ways today. I got a notice in the mail about the pre-diabetes clinic we have to go to later in the month. The 27th I believe. We will go to it together and I'll take notes if necessary. I will do whatever it takes to make Jack healthy and to help him lose weight. His doctor will want to see him too I imagine.
I won't make this very long because I want to work on my scrap book. I will make dinner and put those dishes in to soak and my day is finished. I'll go back and work some more on my scrap book after dinner. I don't think we'll watch TV tonight. I think Grandpa wants to play with Nine. I don't know if she wants to or not, but if he asks her I'm almost positive she won't turn him down. As long as we get to do some things we want to do, I think things will work out fine.
So for now, I will say goodbye and collect the pictures I want to use in the book. I know where the drawings are and this will be fun to do.
Happy reading.
Bonnie
Today a crew of tree people came and started cutting down the big eucalyptus trees up on the hill across from our house. They cut the tops off first because these trees have been there forever. I am glad because the hill is washing away and pretty soon the roots will be exposed and a good strong wind could produce a dangerous incident to take place, like trees falling on our house or our awning. There is a ficus tree that needs to come down in our yard, but I don't know if they will do that or even if it's scheduled to be taken down. We want to put avocado trees in the yard and I'd love to put in a magnolia tree. I want our yard to be really well done and I still want to put roses out front and just let the manager complain about things. That's what managers do I guess. It's our yard...I think we should have some say so in what the yard looks like.
I couldn't fall asleep last night until almost 1:00, and I woke up at 5:30 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep, I feel great though, but I did take a 2 hour nap that rather rounded things out. I didn't have to take my meds right away because I got up around 2:00 last night and took 16 mg of Trilafon and that carried me quiet a ways today. I got a notice in the mail about the pre-diabetes clinic we have to go to later in the month. The 27th I believe. We will go to it together and I'll take notes if necessary. I will do whatever it takes to make Jack healthy and to help him lose weight. His doctor will want to see him too I imagine.
I won't make this very long because I want to work on my scrap book. I will make dinner and put those dishes in to soak and my day is finished. I'll go back and work some more on my scrap book after dinner. I don't think we'll watch TV tonight. I think Grandpa wants to play with Nine. I don't know if she wants to or not, but if he asks her I'm almost positive she won't turn him down. As long as we get to do some things we want to do, I think things will work out fine.
So for now, I will say goodbye and collect the pictures I want to use in the book. I know where the drawings are and this will be fun to do.
Happy reading.
Bonnie
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